Its horrible how things change, what's more frightening is the way I have changed since my break-up. I'm turning into this creature that I've never wanted to be. I'm losing my habits, my thoughts, my values and myself! I tell myself that I shouldn't be the way I am but then what's the point of being what I was......was never appreciated and in the end, I got all the blame and the shame.....Now my life is on the edge, i feel like I'm standing at the edge of a cliff and I'm afraid that I might just fall off any minute.......
How long more am I supposed to help myself? Why can't I have someone to help me? For how long?
No answers to my questions, only scenarios where I end up with more questions........
And, "Move on" is so easy to say......but so hard to follow........
Sigh......
I decided to go back to my first love.....Reading.....
I've always been a bookworm but I kinda stopped reading after Kenny boy came along. He just required too much attention....then the break-up, then school, then I realised that I've lost out on something that gives me alot of joy......the books....
At least, this would prevent me from going out too much and spending money like it grew on trees. Seriously, I wiped out my entire savings, in just 8 months...money I had been saving for 5 years. But its ok, I feel much more better now and now I have start from scratch again. Its ok. I'm at least feeling a bit better. That's what counts most.... :)
Caught 'Meet The Robinsons' yesterday. Nice movie, just another feel good with the motto of the year:
"Let go of the past and Keep Moving Forward..." - easy to say, hard to follow
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