Monday, April 30, 2007

i suffer when i dream

Coffee is heaven.....whoever discovered coffee should have been given a Nobel prize....but too bad, i'm sure that saviour would have been dead by now....



Monday.....Monday.....Monday.......sigh......

This weekend was good...just sleep deprived though.....Helped out at my bro's shop after work on Friday, went for a makeover on Sat, watched a nice Hindi movie on Sun.....a well spent weekend....

I enjoyed the makeover session! It was good! But I still cant believe that I took pictures like that!! Hahahaha!!! You guys won't believe it! But hey, wat's the point of having a makeover when you are not daring enough.....HAHAHAHAHA.....

I went from 'The Sweet Girl Next Door'.....
.....to 'The Vamp Next Door'.....
Yes yes, that's me in the second pic.....all I was wearing was a oversized shirt and hot pants......hehehehe.....i still cant believe I did it!

This is the edited version he did for me.....this is super cool! I just love the background!!

:)

There are more pics in my Yahoo Photos, under the 'Makeover' folder. Enjoy viewing!

Make-up really does wonders!! Damn, how I wish I looked like this everyday! Damn!

Sigh....

Ok, now must get to work....... *i love me makeover n meself!*

Friday, April 27, 2007

maybe i'm perfect for you...

Even though the gods are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mine
I can make it nice and naughty
Be the devil and angel too
Got a heart and soul and body
Let's see what this love can do
Baby I'm perfect for you

Maybe I'm perfect for you

Maybe I'm perfect for you

Maybe I'm perfect for you....


Maybe i am .......... maybe I'm not......sigh.....

Monday, April 23, 2007

God, Save The World from My Farts…

I don’t believe this! Just one weekend of stuffing myself with durians and I end up with smelly farts! And when I mean smelly farts, I mean smelly smelly smelly farts…so smelly to the extend that I think its toxic…….damn…..maybe I should stay away from durians for a while……or I should go on a some kind of diet to detox myself……damn….it stunk bad! Really bad during the weekend. Thank god, its better one. Just 1 or 2 occasional ones, compared to the hundreds I let out since Saturday night! Any suggestions from anyone for a good detox diet?

It’s a good thing my next cubicle neighbour is not in today! I think she would have gotten sick with the inhaling the deadly fumes!!! Lucky her!!

*ppppoooooottttt* Hehe, that just went out but it wasn’t that smelly, considering that it was slient….hehe….i can still breathe!

My best friend and I were talking about men…well, we talk about them almost everyday. We whine, bitch, rant, ramble about them, and at the end of it, we concluded that no matter how assholic they are, we still need a man in our lives!

We were both comparing our lifestyles and wondering how we would be able to meet Mr Right.

~Weekdays-I work from 9.00 am to 6.30 pm. I have class once a week, and I give tuition the rest of the days.

~Weekends-I also give tuition. Other than that, I’m either rolling around in my bed, or rolling around in my aunt’s bed at her place after a few good meals.

I meet up with my friends as and when I can, for dinner and movies. And yeah, clubbing, I’m off clubbing for a while. First, its getting boring. Be it English or Indian club. And besides, i've been spending way too much money and I badly need to save up since I blew off my life savings on numerous shopping sprees.

Then we talked about the guys I’ve met since my break up in Sep, not much though-they are just a handful. (I’m just gonna use their initials.)

~First, there was this guy called L. The first guy I got to know after my break-up at Ashoka. Ok, we had chemistry on the dance floor. We talked while we danced for a whole 30 minutes. We exchanged numbers. But he didn’t call me after that night. I should have known. He must given me his number in his drunken stupor. He was way off my league. I don’t attract drop-dead gorgeous men.

~Then R. Same place-Ashoka. But R was on a vacation in Singapore at that time and was leaving in 2 days back to Indonesia where he was having his company. But he did contact after he flew off but I guess the phone bills must have shocked him coz he stopped calling after a while.

~Then my mum tried to hook me up this filthy rich 30 something man (in my words, ‘uncle’) whom she badly wanted to end up as her son-in-law. Well, I gave things a chance to get to know him better but then after a week of talking on the phone and a lunch date, I concluded that no matter how attractive his offer of ‘tai-taidom’ was, I just couldn’t imagine him on top of me, even with my eyes closed. So the matchmade groom episode ended.

~Then came along K. Sigh. With whom, I could really really click. And I saw potential. But well….he was just another assholic prick….sigh…...no comments.....

~This is the most recent one, actually my last one and now I’m not even getting to know anyone. He was J. Introduced to me by a friend (*winks*). And it turned out that he was one of my good friend’s brother. I was skeptical about it at first but then I kept an open mind and tried to get to know him better. But there weren’t any sparks. Sigh, after a few MSN conversations, phone calls and 2 drink dates, I didn’t see myself going anywhere with him.

Sigh.

8 months, 5 guys but Ket is still not seeing anyone…..

Sigh.

So I’ve come to the conclusion that unless some guy sees me and thinks that I’m the love of his life at first sight, there is no way I’ll be able to find a husband…..but is there a loser out there who would fall in love with me at first sight but is not psychotic…..

Sigh.

I’ll immerse myself into work and my books for now.

Sigh.

*ppppoooooottttt* (no smell this time)

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Let go of the past and Keep Moving Forward...

Its horrible how things change, what's more frightening is the way I have changed since my break-up. I'm turning into this creature that I've never wanted to be. I'm losing my habits, my thoughts, my values and myself! I tell myself that I shouldn't be the way I am but then what's the point of being what I was......was never appreciated and in the end, I got all the blame and the shame.....Now my life is on the edge, i feel like I'm standing at the edge of a cliff and I'm afraid that I might just fall off any minute.......

How long more am I supposed to help myself? Why can't I have someone to help me? For how long?

No answers to my questions, only scenarios where I end up with more questions........

And, "Move on" is so easy to say......but so hard to follow........

Sigh......

I decided to go back to my first love.....Reading.....

I've always been a bookworm but I kinda stopped reading after Kenny boy came along. He just required too much attention....then the break-up, then school, then I realised that I've lost out on something that gives me alot of joy......the books....

At least, this would prevent me from going out too much and spending money like it grew on trees. Seriously, I wiped out my entire savings, in just 8 months...money I had been saving for 5 years. But its ok, I feel much more better now and now I have start from scratch again. Its ok. I'm at least feeling a bit better. That's what counts most.... :)

Caught 'Meet The Robinsons' yesterday. Nice movie, just another feel good with the motto of the year:

"Let go of the past and Keep Moving Forward..." - easy to say, hard to follow

Friday, April 13, 2007

Where Best Friends Are Made...

Finally I can wind down a bit. My exam was over on Tuesday and boy am I relieved. Gotta wait for 2 months to see how far my bullshitting has worked. One more week to bum before I start my new semester at the end of the month. Time really flies fast!




Anywho, for all those bear lovers out there. There is this shop at Vivocity that lets u make your own customized bear.


Its a bit ex though but its lovely! You can practically go ga-ga when you are in the shop!


And I made one for myself. My very own Superboy, who sleeps with my every night! He's super nice to hug too!! :)


You can check out the shop at http://www.buildabear.com.sg/


If I could escape & recreate a place that's my own world
& I could be your favourite girl (forever), Perfectly together
& tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
If I could be sweet (sorry boy)
I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)
I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)
We can make it better
& tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)

Monday, April 02, 2007

What goes up, must come down.....What goes around, will come around.....karma...

Been studying like mad....its horrible trying to crash study when you've been proscatinating soooo much.....argh!!
Life is pretty boring. Nothing exciting is happening. I'm not dating anyone, not going out with anyone new.....sigh.....gave up on the guys I met earlier on...bunch of assholes....I need some excitement in my life!!!Besides all these stress!!!

Anyway here's something interesting that I wanted to blog about. Its about me and Kanz. Kanz is someone whom we all met through the wonderful world of blogging.

Nothing unusual about that but the interesting part is that we became cousins!! Yeah, one of my cousin married her cousin and we became cousins! Cute rite! We met as friends and ended up being cousins! We didn't take a picture together during the wedding...but here is a edited pic of us together, which her friend did for us! Thanks Kanz!!




Too bad la, Kanz, if you have a brother, we could have become sis-in-laws....hehe.... :)