Lost....Gone...

I've been practically living on coffee for the past week.

Work is crappy. It'll get crappier next week.

School has started and the decision of mine to take 3 modules this semester doesn't seem like one I took on a sane mind. Damn!

The fact that today is Friday doesn't make any difference since I'm working tomorrow. Sigh...

Tomorrow happens to be Saturday where the bulk of the parents are most likely to come to MOE to do the Statutory Declaration. Shit...

Which means I have to go home straight after class today so that I can wake up early tomorrow to make it to work before 7.30 am. Coz I know, from 2 years of shitty experience that parents start arriving at 7.30 even though we only open at 8. Shitty!

Sigh.........

Just a little piece of advice to those workaholics or are busy with work now:

Dont overwork yourself....

You might just lose it at some point of time!

The Perfect Sunday

I couldn't have asked for a more perfect Sunday than today. It was good. Not going anywhere and being at home on a Sunday. It was wonderful.

Woke up at 10, swept the house, did my laundry, cleaned my room a bit, then I went back to sleep at 1+, woke up at 4, did my ironing, had a nice long shower and parked myself in front of the telly box at 6.

I'm happy. I wonder when I'll ever get another Sunday like this again....sigh.....

Anyway I found this pic in my pc just now. One I took at Bugis some time back......Just see how comical I look.......hahahahaha..........

Why did my perfect Sunday have to end so fast.....damn....its Monday tomorrow........SIGH.....

Bad day....for many days....

Let's just say I'm not in the best of moods. I've been in a foul mood since Thursday. Thursday was bad. Friday was ok, Saturday was bad and Sunday was ok. Am I'm not feeling any better now with my arrival of my 'little sister' and a fever.....sigh....bad combi for a Monday.....

I realised that its been a very long time since I was at home on a weekend. I've been out too much and now I'm exhausted. From this weekend onwards, I'm not making any plans. I'm just going to bum at home and rest till I get bored of it. Its going to take a loooooong time before I get bored of staying at home.

Been wanting to blog but no time, no energy....since I need some stress relief, some updates....

1) Flowers from Ganesha.-I love this guy! He knew I was freaking out wit my exam, school, bro in hospital n he sent me flowers as a surprise to cheer me up. I can never have a guy buddy who can understand me better than him. Too bad, I see him in the brotherly light, I would have married him otherwise. :) But there are times where he pisses me bad and I piss him off worse but eventually I'm glad that we always overlook our faults and still stay as friends. :) I really owe him alot.

2) My new gadget.

-I finally got a laptop. I'm very bad with lap-tops but I got it coz it would be useful for school and I got it coz it was on promotion and it was a killer buy. But its a bit bigger and heavier than most models. But heck, i should be happy that I got it at this price and my dad actually paid for it. Now I have to start to getting used to using a lap-top. Its just so uncomfortable without the mouse. But my bro's super happy. Now he asks me to come over to the hospital often so that he can play with the laptop. That's actually him using it in the pic.

3) New Bundle of Joy in Pink!-My mum's best friend's daughter gave birth to her second baby and its a girl! She's a big baby, weighing 4.3 kg and she's such a cutie with chubby cheeks!!! Just look at her round face! Baby was born on 12 July at 6.30. Am calling her baby for now since they havent got her a name. I love babies (as long as I can push them to their mum when they start to cry....hehehe....)

Its just Monday.....damn.....

We 3 + Chocolate Fondue = Ecstacy!!

Finally I can be at peace.....ok 1/4 peace since my exam is over.....total peace will be when my Primary One Registration is over, tat is in end Aug......damn, there's more than a month away. It just seems so far away......sigh.....

My exam was bull-shit.....literally.....what I wrote was plain bullshit.....Let's see how much my bull-shit can get me......hahahaha......I can't wait for my results....i wanna see how bad I can get.....hahahaha.....me=hopeless.....

Ya, who else would catch movie 2 days before the exam paper and sleep away the 2 nights before exam instead of studying.....told ya, me=hopeless.....hahahaha.....

Finally caught 'Transformers'! Yes, its the English movie of the year! (The Tamil movie of the year is definitely 'Sivaji') No other movie can beat it!! I've got to watch it again!!! Its fantastic!! Simply superb!

N i didn't Chocolate Fondue was this heavenly! I tried it for the first time last Friday and I tell you, I almost got an orgasm!!! Damn, it was pure ecstacy!!! I was practically in heaven!! Literally chocolate heaven!!! N I can't believe I'm saying this: I would love some chocolate sauce on someone! hahahahahahaha!!!

The 3 of us in purple. It was Minah's idea. She suddenly wanted all of us to turn up in purple and we went along with it!....hahaha....we and our crazy ideas!!!

Just look at the Chocolate Fondue! Doesn't look like the gateway to Heaven!!! We were just tasting it slowly and letting the taste just glide in our throats. You people should have seen us. We looked like 3 ladies on drugs!!!

Now, I'm so hooked on it!!! I want more Chocolate Fondue!!!!!

Shit Happens Everyday

New addition to the workstation:
Shit starts today....damn...

+ No 2

I impress myself on how wierd I can get and not regret it and how I can relieve my stress in the unlikely way......

By getting a tattoo.....

Yup, I got myself a 2nd tattoo.....Yippee!!!

N of all the places on me body, I chose the wierdest place to put.

Coz I liked it there!!!!!!



From now on when my parents are at home, I'll be in track pants or nighties. Shorts only when there's nobody at home! hahahahaha.......

Horrors of child birth! WTF!!!

It started off as a normal 'after-lunch' chit chat. Somehow the topic of child birth came up. And after a horrifying education on child birth, this conclusion has been drawed:

When you have a boyfriend, you will get married...
When you get married, you will have sex...
When you have sex, you will get pregnant...
When you get pregnant, you will have to go through child birth...
When you go through child birth, they cut your vagina...

Lesson learnt: Stay single...

stress......

School's over....Yippie!!

Now the mugging starts....damn.....

N the primary one registration exercise starts next Tuesday.....damn....

stress......

Oh my yellow!!!

I used to be the kind of person who would only choose very 'safe' colours when it comes to dressing. I would only choose colours which I'm very accustomed to.

But lately, I've been getting very experimental with the colours and my wardrobe has been becoming very very colourful. And i did the ultimate in my 'experimental fever' yesterday. Till yesterday, I never thought I could actually look good in such a colour. Damn, I feel so happy that I managed to carry off that colour. I saw this saree at Haniffa on Wednesday but I was very undecided about buying because I was afraid that I wont be able to carry that colour so I didnt buy it on the spot. Then I asked a few ppl whether that colour would suit and Sumi had to be one of them! Coz she's the best when it comes to colours! And I had to trust Sumi when she said 'go ahead! :)

Went back to Haniffa yesterday and bought that saree after my cousin sis also told me that it looked nice on me. And i also managed to influence her to buy her first chilli red saree!! hehehehe :):)

I laus my saree!!! N I can't wait to tie it!!!!! :):)

Thanks Sumi! Thanks Letchumi akka!!!! Laus you both!!!

I need space!

My dad's pissing me off bad on one thing. And I can't understand why he can't agree on it! I wanna do a built-in bedroom set for my room n he keeps saying no and that it is a waste of money even though I already told him I'll pay for it.

He probably thinks that I'm miraculously get married in another 2 years time and move my ass out of the house. Which is sooo not the case! I don't see myself moving out of that place (even though its a hellhole) for another 5 years or so!

Humph! Why can't he just agree! I need space! I need alot of space!! I have too many clothes, too many shoes, too many bags, too many everything and too little space! Argh!!!

The men just don't get it, don't they!

Clubberholic not wanna be

I have an IN-tray on my table but these people just insist on leaving stuff for me all over my table.......dont I just love my colleagues.......

I wanna abandon clubbing but looks like clubbing doesn't want to abandon me....sigh......I didn't want to club last Saturday but I somehow ended up in Ashoka....again.....after 2 weeks....and how did it happen? Here's the sad story:

Minah and I bought her mum out for dinner on Saturday at Sakura in Far East since her birthday was on Friday. Had a good time whacking the food. Then Rathiga, who had gone to the hospital to visit her dad, called saying that she would like to meet. So Minah and I met her at Plaza Sing. We were sitting outside Plaza Sing while Rathiga was boozing on Bacardi, all of us thinking wat to do. Rathiga wasnt in the mood for a movie. I suggested going home and sleeping but both of them were against it too!

Then we moved to KFC coz I was hungry again. Still no plans made. I was still telling them tat it was better to go home since we can't come up with a plan. Then Minah took out her phone and reserved a table at Ashoka. I was like, "Babe, not again!". Minah and Rathiga just smiled. Damn!

And I had to go coz I owed Minah coz she had accompanied me to Chakravarthy the other time. So from there, we went to Rathiga's place. She changed and we all headed to Ashoka......And another Saturday night, dancing away......

Now how do I convince these 2 people to stop clubbing for a while???? From where do I have to get the will-power to discipline myself????

Just look at me! I look like crap, don't I? Argh!!!!!!

Pain pain pain.....

I’m aching all over, inside out….

My Primary One Registration starts in less than a month. There are just soooooo many things to do…..I’m drained…..totally drained-mentally and physically…..there’s still more to come…..parents, applications, web uploads, crowd, system, production, logistics, briefing, more parents, more applications, more complaints, more ‘fighting fire’……argh……..

Then why am I still in this job…..coz I haven’t got another job and the 2 job offers I got, didn’t match my expected salary…

It’s interesting how I can ask questions and answer them myself….

I wish I could escape to Batam for a massage…….I’m so in need of it! Now I still another 3 months or so before I can take leave…….damn…….

And I still am not done with my project due on Tuesday…..damn….damn me….

Argh!

The only things that's keeping happy is looking at my nicely painted nails with my fav nail colour-Rose Petal Red from The Body Shop......

Don't mind the bad photography. Am still trying to master the skills of taking good photos with my N73......

Damn, I'm in a terrible mood for a Friday.....this is bad.....shit......

Swinging Bacherlorette....

I really wish people who stop bugging me about being 25 and single. They seem to be more sad about it than me.

Thanks for their concern about not wanting me to die with a dried-up vagina with cobwebs growing it in but I’m least bothered about that.

I can’t just marry any Tom, Dick or Harry picked up off the street and nor can I get married when I’m not ready.

First, I’m slowly losing the trust in the constitution called marriage. Have seen enough broken marriages to vouch for it.

Second, Trusting someone new is very very VERY difficult now. Kumar’s episode made things difficult, the short stint I had with ‘K’ worsen things and now the last thing I wanna do is trust another dick.

Third, I can never just settle down with someone just because it’s time. I can only marry someone coz I want to, not becoz I can. There’s a BIG difference in between ‘want’ and ‘can’. Marriage is a big step and I don’t want to regret any decision I make related to it and ruin my life and the other party’s. Getting a divorce is MUCH MORE expensive than getting married.

Fourth, looking at how my mum has been behaving, I don’t think anyone would wanna have her for a mother-in-law, not even me. Seriously, I think she’s losing it. Either that or she’s just plain incorrigible. No further comments….

Fifth, I’m fed up with the whole dating and getting to know a guy thingy. Its like starting from scratch and I don’t have the time nor the energy for that. I’m pretty happy with what I have now and I’m not really bothered to re-adjust my schedules. Dating and men aren’t on my list of priorities anymore.

Yes, I do feel the pain at times when I see how happy some couples are but I have more reasons to make me not want to get married than the reasons I have to make me want to get married. Sad? I say nope! :)

And I better not hear the term “You are too choosy.” again….its turns me murderous……

you cant hide the truth rite
no matter how much u pretend, u can never hide the truth rite
i have to accept the truth rite
i have to accept the truth and realise that i cant run away from anything
i have to accept the truth that all this IS really happening
i have to accept the truth that i'm surrounded by hypocrites
i have to accept the truth that this is my life
i have to accept the truth that

I'M FUCKINGLY CURSED!!!!

FUCK...IT STINKS!!!! IT FUCKING STINKS...........

i'm breaking, i'm hurting, i'm sick and tired, i'm losing it....i'm really really losing it....

*this is not about any boy, its just about me and the shithole that i call my life. ignore it, ignore me*

If giving up was this easy....

I had a tiring weekend.....damn....but I had fun, nevertheless! Its either I don't club or I club 2 days in a row....I've gotto stop doing this......Ya, this is what I always tell myself but I always end not honouring my words.....damn me!

My Friday evening was busy. It was Rathiga's birthday on Saturday and so we decided to do a surprise birthday for her at Newton on Friday night around 11+. So i had planned to go home, rest for a while and then meet the rest. But my mum had made plans with her cousins to go Chakravarthy and wanted me along. I tagged along since my other aunt was coming. If not for my aunt, I wouldn't have gone with her. Told this to Minah and she sprung up with the idea of having dinner at Riverwalk Tandoor since she had craving for it. I hadn't eaten there before and I said ok.

So after work, I met Minah at Riverwalk Tandoor, had a super heavy dinner and then took a cab down to Chakravarthy and then around 11+ left the plus and headed to Newton Food Centre to celebrate Rathiga's birthday and then we dragged Rathiga along, back to Chakravarthy since Rathiga has not been there before. I was drained by the time I left that place at 3 am. My mum was more energetic than me!

This is Minah enjoying her 'gulab jamun'. Oh boy, the sweetmeats at Riverwalk Tandoor are just fantastic! I would love to go back there again just for them!!! I think the sugar level in my body would have shot up tremendously on Friday. I was practically stuffing myself with 'payasam', 'gulab jamun' n 'mysore pak'.

And the naans are fantastic also la! The mutton was TASTY! I'm not a fish person but the fish sambal was really nice. I was pretty amazed that I actually went for a second serving for that. In all, it was really worth going for the buffet dinner! I'll go there again! :)

Pics we took at the Singapore River and at Chakravarthy. Club Chakravarthy is ok. The band wasn't really very fantastic. But Minah, Rathiga and I are pretty good at entertaining ourselves so we did have a good time there. Rathiga's Birthday Celebrations!
She had so innocently followed her husband and her sister to Newton. She had no idea that they were in cahoots with us! hehe! She was really surprised when she saw us!!! I love it when it happens!! Haha!! And Siva (Rathiga's husband) had to bring her late so while waiting, I was entertaining myself taking pics. And as usual, Minah was trying to be 'extra' with Rathiga's cake! haha!
And finally she arrived!!! With a super surprised face!!! haha!!!

I was in a foul mood on Saturday. It was due to the lack of sleep. But thank god, nobody got on my nerves.

Went to Rathiga's new place in the evening before we all headed to Ashoka for part 2 of her birthday celebrations. Her new home is nice...very nice! I just love the way she had renovated her place. And I had a great time with her kids! I love her son!!! Cute fellow! That kutti rascal sang 'Yemmadi Atthaddi' without going out of tune u know! We have concluded that the daughter is the replica of Siva and the son, the replica of Rathiga! :)

So we all headed down to Ashoka from her place. Just look at our pics....Rathiga is the only who looks good, Minah and I look like we are high on drugs when we hadn't even drank anything. I only had coke throughout the night. I didnt want to have diarrhoea on Sunday. We took 3 shots and we looked crappy in everything....shit! As usual, we rocked the club! But I didnt exactly have fun coz it was suffocating in the dance floor. We ended up dancing at the sofa area where we were seated.

So all the fun was over at 4 am and I was back home and I spent my entire Sunday doing nothing but sleeping. Now I've gotto use my public holiday to catch on my project and my notes. The Queen of Procastination has struck again!!

*Question: How do you know when to give up?*

A A A A A A

Just came back home and what do I see on my table?An envelope from MDIS which contains my exam result......

I couldn't bear to see it.....I told my dad to open it.....He smiled.....I saw.....and what did I see?



OMG!! Me got an A!! Can you believe it?? Kethrine got an A!

I'm like practically jumping around in happiness. And this calls for an celebration!! I'm gonna pig out extra when I'm having dinner at Riverwalk Tandoor tomorrow! I'm so looking forward to it!!!

Now it calls for extra work coz I've set a benchmark for myself and I have to try to keep up to it. Damn! Pros and Cons! Sigh....Now I'll work extra hard!! :) I laus myself!!!!*Muacks!*

Burning weekend.....Busy weekdays.....no more life already...

One word to describe my work now: killer....i'm practically dying....and the fact that I came to work last weekend isnt helping....Sigh....Good luck to us!

I would rant more about work but then its not going to lead me anywhere. So instead of writing depressing stuff (as if my life isnt depressing enough), I'll just write about the happy things that have happened.

Met up with Avril and Minie on Friday. Had dinner at Borders' Bistro. Other than the oily spaghetti, the meeting was fine. Minie and I went shopping after Avril had to leave early. Why do shops close so early on a Friday? Can't they extend till 11....humph....

Saturday was the Day!!! Where the IBMers got together after freaking looooong time...It wasnt full attendance but it was fun!

Sumi, Ananthi, Ambiga, Kanzy and me! Small but a noisy bunch of girls who made a hell lot of noise while playing pool. Vulgarities were just flying around, with Indian songs in the background....I should say, the other 4 of them played pool, I just watched pool. But I had lots of fun watching the rest play and I have to apologise to Kanzy. She kept trying to teach me how to play and I kept hitting the ball before she could finish teaching me....hehehe....sry ah babe!! :)


We'll meet up again soon ok. I was thinking about this: All of us are single. I didn't mean to say ita bad way but I kinda realised it that all of us are single....hehe....Let's look at it in a positive way:

-No possessive boyfriend to stop us from meeting on Saturday
-No boyfriend to report to, which means we didnt have to keep answering his calls
-No boyfriend to give us curfews which would have spoilt the fun on Saturday
:)

Why is it still Wednesday? Where's my Saturday?

Daddy's girl.....

My friend Clara's dad passed away on Wed.....

The funeral was today.....

I know how much Clara and her dad loved each other....

I still remember how happy and proud his face was when he was walking Clara down the aisle....

I saw his lifeless corpse today....with a peaceful face......

I don't know what I'll do if this happens to my dad.....

I don't want to think abt it....

He's the man of my heart.....the one and only man who'll ever be able to fill up my heart and never leave it.....n I dont care what my mum says about him....coz I know I'm his princess....

"You are my daughter and I only want the best for you. You'll live like a queen."

The Lousy Aura....

I hate being sick.....who doesnt.....sigh....the shitty and lousy feeling is hovering around me.....

I have the big aura of depression, sickliness and lousiness surrounding me......sigh...sigh....sigh.....

I hate being at home, feeling sick and lousy......shit......

ARGH!

Here's to confirm Sat's plan:

Date: Saturday, 19 May 2007
Venue: Jurong East Control Station (so that we cld either walk down or take a bus together...any objections?)
Time: 2 pm

Pls let me know if they are any changes to be made. Hopefully there's full attendance :)

I'm not really into romantic movies but Unnale Unnale was good. Watched it on Saturday and I really enjoyed it....the ending was good.....how do u choose between being practical and following your dream?

I'm so looking forward to Friday *Avril, u know why* ;)

I'm so looking forward to Saturday *the rest of you know why*

Can these 2 days come faster.......argh.......




This is what I believe in....Talking things out openly....

What's the point.....

The fact that I'm single and not seeing anyone serious or that i don't have someone special hadnt really affected me for a long time................till today.....i really felt sad abt it today after a loooooong time.....

Wore a new punjabi suit to work today. Had stitched long time ago but hadn't worn it. I had ironed it and it was hanging on my clothes rack for 2 weeks and I decided to wear it today since I'm going to the temple later, despite the terrifying weather (the punjabi suit is long sleeve) and i really looked good in the bright red colour. That's when it hit me - I have nobody special to show it to and to admire me in it......

You know me, I'm not the type to dress up for work. But when I do feel like dressing up, I'll make I show it to Kumar. I'll go over and wait till he comes back from work, no matter how late it is and parade in front of him, in hope of a nice comment. And most of the time, he would give me one coz I knew what kind of dressing he liked.

This morning, on my way to work, I missed having a boyfriend.....there's nothing like getting a nice comment from that special someone when you are dressed well, regardless of whether its for him or just for fun.........damn......that was when I felt super lonely......

Then i got remembered about something that happened recently.......i had things set.....my mind was set on one thing; no more compromises....my path was straight and clear......but then......you had to come along and make my mind and path divert and just when I started to compromise again....compromise one more time.......you had to drop everything.....citing me as a reason........damn, I'm so sick of people blaming me for everything......why can't people reaslise their own mistakes.......damn....i'm just so sick of it!!! Now you made things more difficult....for me......"thank you".......damn.......

Anyway, with my half-hearted self at work, I conducted a training for the people in my unit, regarding our individual websites.

I was so pissed that I had to conduct this. I was almost ready to kill my 'Head' for making me do it. (ok, i'm being a bit dramatic here...). I was also comtemplating having a no show at work, just to avoid it but i realised that a screw-up during the training is better than a nagging from my mother. Reluctantly I started the training but hey, it did turn out well to my surprise. I didn't bore anyone. No one ended up dozing off and they even corrected my mistake later which meant that they were paying attention. I felt so happy! :) I'm glad I did a good training! :) *pats back* :) At least this perked me up a bit! :)

Another half-an-hour or so......gonna leave, go temple n bum at home.....I'll enjoy this 2 weeks of freedom from tuitions till it starts again in end May....

*kooravaa inggu enadhu aasayai...thozhanae vandhu ularu meedhiyai...*